Friday, November 13, 2009 @ 2:02 PM
ExplanationTime
It's friday agains.
Idk what am I going to do.
I fear for the repeat.
I think I need a break.
I can't carry like this.
I need to run,
Calm myself down.
I fear I would break down again.
I got lots of explaining to do today.
But I dun feel lyk talking about it.
I wish I could turn back the clock.
Where everything was still there.
Trying really hard to work for my goal.
But now it seems different.
I did work hard for what I wanted but it did not come out that way.
Then now I dun noe whether I should carry on working hard when the outcome is lyk that.
I used to have great interest in it.
But just a few of it without her.
I let her down greatly.
I dun noe how to carry on,
How to face her.
I just dun know what to do anymore.
Mayb I just need to stop and think.
Mayb I was never suitable for it.
Lyk I lost it.
Sorry for the rantings.
But it just had to be blogged.
iviewthepicturesoncemore.
butnowtheyaredifferent.
theirsmiledissappearinmyhand.
theyneverunderstoodmypointofview.
sorry,iguessichosetogaveupagain.
ps, happy14thmonthtochramaine&iggy.
pss, happy14thbirthdaytojordon.