This is gonna be another emo post.
&abit hurtful.
So ya. Bear with me kayys.
&sorry if I hurt you&stuff.
But I guess I can be frank once in awhile.
WeiLin:
During the bbq, when you said about pushing the things to you last min.
Do you know that you were not the only one being spammed with the msges
&stuff.
Before that YOU ALL put me the imformant& I was spammed with the msges.
I also dk wad to reply to them stuff.
Did you even think of that.
& the job was also pushed to me last min.
I was so lost. That moment I wanted to just turn away from my phone.
I wanted to act like I did not see all those.
I can take all your jokes.
Each&everyone. But, I just wanna say that b4 you try to say me.
Will you think b4 the job was pushed to you who was it pushed to?
Sorry for this. Really. But Florence's post made me think.
Mdms:
Though I know you wun be reading this but ya.
About the reason&stuff.
Maybe I really need a break.
I don't feel rdy enuff though I know you think I do.
It wasn't that i dun wanna reply to you&stuff.
But i don't know what to reply you den it's ryte.
&when I feel so despair&can't keep my promises,
I rmb your disappointed face from my dreamz.
Maybe I have Been taking this responsibility too heavy.
At times I wish I was not the one you choose.
I rather it be WeiLin or Jiening.
I wish I wasn't the one with all these.
I just can't stand myself disappointing you over&over again.
& you just wun gib up on me.
As I get older.
I feel that my shoulders are getting heavier.
At times I feel I can't even stand up w it.
All of the sudden I feel TKD as a different thing.
Really sorry. But I can't say yes to something I know I can't do.
No matter how much it is going to disappoint you again.
Florence:
Sorry. I'm alr trying my best to think positive&stuff.
But apparently.Things just kept me back to the starting point again.
I also want to be like last time.
Where I'll just talk things out.
But I can't. I feel like I hab to keep the 10thousands secrets.
&stuff. Guess I've been really pulling back.
But I think you're the only one who will see me the way I wished any1 would.
The only one who could understand me w/o me to open my mouth.
The only one who would give me the right advice @ the right time.
THanks.Maybe one day, you'll be my cure when I suffer from depression XD
'cause I'll always think back&say. I can't be like this.
'cause I still hab a friend who truly can understand me.
& THE ONLY FRIEND who enters my mind w/o me knowing.
Thanks alot. iloveyoumorethanicansay, I know this sound wrong but you get it.
Crystal:
I promised you that I'll pick myself up.
But I need you to help me be stronger will you?
I need you to make sure that I stay true to myself.
& stop thinking negatively.
Mayb by the end of the year.
I'll be all smiley by the end of the year.
2010:
Bring me back to 2007&before that.
I wanna noe how smiley I was.
How my smiles seems so wide.
&make sure that I'll be same as last time by the end of this year.
Also make sure I score well for exams will ya?
Sad:
Don't hold me back anymore.
Let me fly free.
Let me learn more about happiness now.
He's getting jealous of me spending too much time on you X)
Happiness:
Tell me you'll stay with me.
Through it all with all the positive things.
Let me experience smiles like I never b4):
I need you.