Saturday, March 20, 2010 @ 12:16 AM

Update!

When life gets harder each time, an angel passes by & makes it all better.

Okayys, I know I haven been updating my blog & stuff.

I was lazy kayyys.

Anyways back to life kayyyyys.

HAHAS!

Hmmms, I shall be honest here kayyys.

But I'll start with how was my life.

HAKKAIDO TRIP

Snowing almost everyday, the awesome snow!

HAHAS!

Florence was officially attached to me there too!

HEHES!

The place there was quite okayys toooooos!

Okayyys, actually I'm just crapping.

I kinda forgot what i did there-.-

Ohhhhhhhs, I fell off while playing the snow mobile ):

I caused my sister to have a cut on her lips.

WHILE I WAS LAUGHING MY WAY!

HAHAS. I'm ebvil!

I was so sorry kayyys.

I didn't really missed much of lessons, so it was okayyyyys.

I missed alot of anypaosssss though.

HAHAS! Managed to catch up faster den i thought I would XP

SCHOOL!

THIS IS SO FAWESOME! hahas.

Life been great in school.

Still making fun with same ppl with AISHAH getting bored @ it (:

HAHAS! RYTE AISHAH?

HAHAS.Missed quite alot of gossips so couldn't rlly understand @ 1st.

But yassss.

I came back to schoool just nice for another maths chap.

Otherrrrs never missed much (:

SO GOOOOOOOOODS!

hahas.

Nothing makes my day better w peeps(:

HOLIDAYS

I've been busy.
Sat went out with flo to find ben @ IT fair.Regrettttttttted ttm. Shall not say whhy.
Sun went to stay @ hotel
Quite okayyys larhhhs.
Swum with my very pain leg due to the day b4.
Mon went to school for physics lesson& tkd training.
WOKE WAYNE UP! YAY ME! I MADE MR LIM HAPPY!
Cuz he say he'll be happy if wayne, kevin & some other person will come(:
YAY! HAHAS. Training the same, den went home.
Tues went to nyp.
Job given & done asap! HAHAS!WE'RE A SUPER TEAM! Did homework!

Wayne went to pierce his ear & it freaked me!

Wed went to interview a industry person.

den nyp to do report etc.

Dizzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyy from taxi trip!

Thurs we went to disturb ppl by askingthem to do surveyyyyys!

hahas! Attacked the Tam library & white sands!

Den Ikea. PHOTOS IN FACEBOOK.

Friday went out with wayne to do hw which failed cuz he didn't do.

Den walk arnd, den go lan.

FIRST TIME I GO LAN SIA!

Dizzzzzyyyyyyy like crazy.

Was having this headache from climbing the stairs that i thought i would fall.

& it lasted to know.

Den wayne sent me to eunos den I go home.

Den training.

Sat&Sun going to support my juniors in tournoment(however it's spelt)!

Busy sia, where got holiday ):

HAIXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZXZ.

Awesome life, with times I get real depressed.
Hahas. Shall talk about the sad part of life tooo.

Like a said,If you have feelings for two at the same time,
It means that you don't love the first that much as you should.
I'm having that feelings.

I think you deserve someone better than me.

Someone who loves you like you do to her.

Had been having this feeling alr.

Our start was already a mistake.

You were once my regret,& now I'm back to square one.

I don't know how much this is gonna affect you.

But I guess it's better than cheating you.

& I once said that you remind me of ppl.

I meant was my bastard ex.

I can't stand how similar you guys are.

I want to leavethis nightmare yet it comes back to me through you.

So sorry for wasting your time all these while.

Thanks for letting me know that you can be there for me.

But I guess maybe we aren't right for each other.

We're just worlds apart alr.

With love,

Crystal

I sat down, I've been thinking.
MY life always just repeats. Since Sec1.

Life been the same.

It's the same cycle with diff ppl,

Although some same ppl but diff positions.

I think life gotta change abit.

I gotta stop and think awhiles. I need life.

If I told you I had two feelings for you & YOU.

Would you believe? I know what I want.

But I don't want to go for it.

Nothing can me happy again.
Not even TKD can help me vent my anger.

HELP ME!

Let me be that lil girl from my memories. That girl that was protected by all, the one w/o worries and all she had to do was to smile. I hate how I handle my life now. I keep repeating the same mistakes. So what if I meet nice & right guys, are they what I really want, what I really need? I need my motivation, my drive. I need someone who can make me do all these. I need someone who is willing to play all these childish games with me & feel like a samll kid again. I need someone to push me to do things I have to. I need someone who can make me do things I used to do. I lost it all. Even if mdms there, I just couldn't do. Everyone is improving & I'm deproving.

I JUST WANNA BE THAT SMALL GIRL, WITHOUT ALL THESE TO WORRY.